Today is the first really cold day that we have had. I had to turn the heat on in my car this morning. It’s chilly walking through the warehouse too. My office mate is out with her kids who are sick. So I am by myself in the studio.

My back pain was directly related to my woman time, and once it arrived the pain went away. Thank GOD!

I am trying to force myself to stay at the night job for at least 2 hours before I bounce, cause my checks are just gas money the last month or so. But last night I bounced after 45 minutes. I had a cute outfit, make up done and was having an awesome hair day so I had to stop and see Luiz before I left the area to go home. I go in the store to get a bag of puffy cheetos. I have $2 on my credit card that I want to get rid of so I put it on there. I ask about my CD if he has heard it yet. He says no. I tell him I miss it a little. He offers to give it back to me. “It’s in my car.” I say okay. He has on a sweat jacket because it’s cold in the store because of the meat. He takes it off. GLORIOUS! Fitted white tee is like butter on him, and those broad boxers shoulders. I almost hit the floor. But I maintained. I went out to wait for him to grab his keys from the back. He came out and we walked to the back of the parking lot to his car. A gorgeous white Volkswagen jetta. He reaches in and grabs it. I express my disappointment that he was unable to listen to it. DAMN that encryption! I ask if he gets breaks at work. He looks at me like what? Like a 15 minute break? He tells me no, cause it’s family. They don’t play that. I’m like that’s against the law, but ok. The sun is setting, and the weather is amazing. I just want to kidnap him and go sit someplace. Next thing I know we are talking about relationships, and what we are like. This big fat guy pulls up in a caddy holding a gaudy gold chain out the window. He’s yelling to Luiz to buy it off him. Luiz says nah. The guy then says “What about for your girl then.” I was like whoaaaaaaaa Nellie! “I’m not his girl.” Then I turned away and said to myself “Yet.” I turned back to Luiz. “ No offense.” He says none taken.

We pick back up about relationships. He asks if I have ever been a player. I tell him no. I have always been open and up front with every man I see. There are causal relationships, and there are monogamous ones. When I am monogamous that’s it for me. “I am the same way.” He says. We discover that we both like a balance, no 24-7 fifty calls a day. Throwing tantrums if I don’t see you everyday type of stuff. “I like to miss you a little bit.” I tell him. “So when I see you, I can celebrate you all over again.” His eyes lit up. “I know what you mean. So you appreciate each other more.” Yeah, we both say. He asks again if I have kids. Nope. He asks again if I have ever been married, I say no. He asks why. Then he chimes in for me, “You haven’t found the right one yet.” I agreed. Then he asks how old I am. I ask how old he thinks I am. He says 24-25. I was like nope. He guessed and guessed. “You’re over 30???” Yep. He kept guessing. When he finally got to it, the same reaction I always get, disbelief, awe. Denial. “No you aren’t. There is no way.” So then we went though that whole thing. Then he said, “You look that way because you have never been married or had kids.” Which I am sure is true. I didn’t tell him I thought he was in his 30’s, I’m sure it would devastate him. He doesn’t carry himself like a kid tho. Then he wanted to know if I ever wanted to have kids. I said yeah. I could adopt if need be. “But would you have your own?” he wanted to know. “Sure if it came down to it, but I am almost 40, so I know the risks of that too.” He assured me there are women in their 40’s having babies. I was kinda like how the hell did we get on this conversation?? It was sort of romantic in a way. We talked for a good 20 minutes, then he said he had to get back. He asked if he could have a hug. I obliged. It wasn’t one of those cordial hugs, it was very long, and warm; with a sigh in the middle. He’s holding onto me and he says “I really enjoy your company.” To which I say “I really like you too, I would really love to get to know you better.” We part and start walking toward my car that’s parked near the store. “Well my schedule is going to open up more soon.” He says. “That’s good, I worry about you working so hard.” I tell him. “That’s sweet. We’ll work something out.” He assures me. And we say our good byes.

WHEW!

I’m on a cloud and I’m gonna stay there for a while.